weeeeeeee~~~~~~~~ this year we’re nearer to each other.. although we still can’t meet up still busy but feel closer to you! =)

This 3rd Anniversary marks a new stage for both of us as both of us are working now =)

1st Anniversary = both studying

2nd Anniversary = you working, i’m studying

3rd Anniversary =  both working

=)))))))) (see my big smiley face?)

Can’t wait to see you and go out for your San Francisco Dinner

I know, we’re having communication problem.. Difficulties in understanding each other.

But i believe that this is just a transitional stage.. everything will be fine after some time.. of course we got to talk about it bit by bit…

Thanks for having faith in me and us..

Although people are telling you to be aware that i have a young boss.. Hmm.. maybe you’re worried but trying to hide it away from me.. but still.. thanks…

You’re the one appear in my head when I hear any love song, see any love scene and even feel any love…

I know i’m violent and sometime unreasonable- emotionally.. that’s just because i’ve lost my way to express =p

You still.. bare with me.. =)

Love you very very much..muacks..

]]> http://smmaniac.wordpress.com/2011/05/18/happy-3rd-anniversary/feed/ 0 smmaniac http://smmaniac.wordpress.com/2011/05/05/3rd-day-of-worki/ http://smmaniac.wordpress.com/2011/05/05/3rd-day-of-worki/#comments Thu, 05 May 2011 12:37:08 +0000 smmaniac http://smmaniac.wordpress.com/?p=226 ]]> Just want to check in this love post quickly

Cuz i’m having backache after work! hmmm.. old?

Was listening to a song in the car.. it’s something like they’ve forgot who said “love you forever” first.

Then i was thinking, hmm.. what about mine?

haha. then i rmb the puzzle framed picture i gave you that written “love you forever…”

I think i’m the one who said it 1st, not i’m sure.

Cuz i think too much and did not say it in the past relationship and i’ve learnt that it’s important to let the partner knows that you want to love them forever (at least at that moment)

While you, said it in the last relationship and thinks that it’s too cheap to say that easily… Ah, well… that balance things up rite? if both of us doesn’t want to say forever then there’ll be a gap between us..

today is my 3rd day of working.. the 1st 2 days were too tired to even think of u =p so now accumulate to the 3rd day…

I MISS YOU VERY MUCH!!!!!

Very excited over the 3rd aniversary.. i must get the perfect wallet.. i don’t want to get u a cheap one.. cuz i want u to use it forever but not waiting for another gal to give u another one =(

Since u said that u’re over budget for the last month, so… i’m thinking why not we postpone it… then i can bare the cost

=)))))) but got to wait till next month a bit long hor? HMMMM.. gotta think think think about it..

ok, that’s not short anymore..

This moment i feel loved and love you very much! teeeheeeeee…………….

muacks

Dunno why i just feel so..

There’re many times i want to shout this feeling out but don’t know where and how to =)

Feel Loved is the happiest thing

It’s like feel like being hugged even when u’re not =p

I want to feel like this for the rest of my life!

Even just alternate day =p

I’ll look for the next day when you make me feel loved again! =)

Love,

Fishy

p/s: i hope i make u feel loved too!

Just want to be happy but why everything seems so complicated.

I know both of us didn’t want it to be unhappy but it always turn unhappy.

Somehow i like to talk comment and ask a lot,

while you seems annoy, and unhappy.

I know your work bother you a lot and you didn’t want to talk more about it after your work,

What can i do to make you happy?

Every weekend i’m very excited to see you again and i want to go to your new house

But i know it’s troublesome to fetch me there.

I don’t know what i should do.

Shouldn’t be excited or expecting to see you on the weekend

Or just tell you that i want to see you every weekend.

It’s hard to balance, i know.

I just can focus on my job hunting

just hope that new job will distract me from you but not carry me away from you.

For the first time i’ve forget about celebration but you do remember!

So i’m super duper happy =))) can see my smile?

Going out on that day is not a  brilliant idea cuz must be jam and restaurant will be full..unless we booked one @.@

Hmm..what shall i prepare for the V day what’s for the pressie.. Hmm hmmm hmmmmmm….

I hope it’ll be a great day =)

缺少朋友的时候，需要你多一些。

我不敢，要得更多，因为我知道你有的空间也不够

听见你那无奈的声音，想说的都忘了。

我的悲哀，

能告诉谁？

I jealoused how  the other guy act out how much they love their girls,

I jealoused how much the couple can spend their sweet time together.

Suddenly, i don’t.

i realise that those stories that i envied are not fair and balance.

I’m not sacrifying anything. but our love is still beautiful cuz it contains patient.

we work hard for our future.

I don’t just wait patiently but work hard together.

I believe there will be one day, the better days are here.

We’ll be happy for each other.

By Fishy.

It is not that i want to be angry all the time when we got a chance to talk, believe it or not i was so happy when we weren’t talking. Missing you and thinking about how amazing we are make me happy. I always wanted to tell you how much i love you and how i see our future in my mind, how good we are compare to the couple that i’m aware of. Even when you told me that you feel supported when the webcam is on and even i’m not in front of the computer, I feel i’m needed and loved when you say that you are less able to focus when i’m out compare to when we’re working together. I don’t like the feeling of loving someone so much but not being loved as much as i do. That few days, i feel being loved but it didn’t last long.

I can understand that you are busy but what i’m asking for is just the minimal QUALITY COMMUNICATION. But know what? I think i don’t check my email and smmaniac so often anymore, even i go to the site is because i have something to post or i have some email to send. I know that you won’t update me thru there. What’s the meaning of just saying good night every call? i didn’t know anything you’re up to. The moment i know about it, is the moment you’re shouting at me telling me how busy you were. It’s not fair to me. I just have 23 days of freedom, to do my work, enjoy my time with my friends and my last 23 days in London. I don’t want to spend my time waiting to talk with my boyfriend who just kept me waiting and waiting. If you have something to tell me, just send me email. Oh, i bet you didn’t even realise that “check in love” is no longer available.

I don’t know what’s the purpose of posting all these bullshit when  you won’t even check it. Good luck for ur presentation.

I know i’ve wished you before, but still wanna post it here HAPPY 29TH MONTHSARY!!!

i love 29th monthsary because it’s with my favourite number 29 and it’s my first day i’ve got my internet back!

Hmm.. a bit disappointed when you say you have to sleep earlier and forgot about the date. What to do? My biba is sicky and still need to dancy! haha..

Trying to be more happy on 18th, but it’s still hard for me.

still, love you very much biba..

Muacks~!

Today i moved a bit of things to jungle’s new house which is in east london- Stratford.. Kinda far from here actually.. around 45 mins of train! Still have some more things here.. will have to clear on Wed! But anyhow, tml gonna go to find my lecturer and go to Bank 1st!

today after move my stuff, we went to liverpool street again but then go to the other 2 or 3 markets… Not feeling very well, maybe it’s too crowded and i’m not used to it.. Then evening around 6.30pm my landlord came to return the deposit! so gonna get it bac soon.. At night we went to peili’s hse to have dinner.. sunny is back today! The weather here is quite cold when there’s no sun! Shiverring when i walked back from peili’s hse =(

About the trip! Sunny is interested to go to Netherland with us! so most probably we gonna go to Hannover (germany) which is andy’s place and then go to amsterdam this end of October! Will tell you when i’ve booked my ticket.

Tml i hope i can vc a while with you but it’s alright if we didn’t get a right time.

It must be shit for you to work non-stop for 7 days =( How’s the eighth day (monday)? Still headache? Got any good candidate for your new management trainee? interview started ad ??don’t forget to keep those funny and interesting video for me arrrr.. k?

Muacks!!! lovee biba.. very very muchie…

p/s: today is 101010 lerrrr…. heeee.. just wana tell you..